rough first draft  authors note

 

Welcome to Curiosityitis 

if you like me have been feeling that imagination is bad 
enough but Curiosity is killing you then you are not alone  
and if you think there is hope and a cure then the following 
words hopefully will give you freedom from hope 

 if Curiosity is Killing You like Me -"place no hope in death"

 but first have you ever noticed  how the word cure is in 
 the word curiosity - aren't you curious to know - well i 
 don't know? but maybe its because there is no cure for 
 curiosity!!! Curiosityitis... think about it, its an 
 affliction that way to few people suffer from...???!!!

 Curiosity is Killing Me!! is also from title of a book i am 
 not writing, why? because, it would kill me and feed my 
 mind and head full of hope and what to put in a book or 
 website or my head about curiosity would give me a headache and 
 added acute curiosityitis and it would be a MISTAKE to write 
 it....  unless somebody twisted my arm and offered me my 
 head on a platter 

what can i say about curiosity that would make any sense - 
since it doesn't make any sense - maybe that is why its so 
addicting 

and maybe Henry Miller said it best when asked by a reporter 
where he got his inspiration - "inspiration, i hate 
inspiration, it consumes you like a fire, it eats you 
up!!... i can't wait to get rid of it!!... and besides its 
not you sitting right here" well maybe he didn't say it just 
like that - but then again maybe he did or would have... but 
if you like me suffer from many sleepless night of endless 
puzzling and twisting and turning and obsessing while 
rummaging through the landscapes and junk yard of your mind 
in search of the un-searchable too and can't wait to get rid 
of it!!... or as a friend once said - when i am quiet i get 
too many ideas... 

and yet and yet Curiosityitis is a serious debilitating 
incurable disease that we suffer from its not a laughing 
matter -  for some insomniacs insomnia has its roots 
somewhere in curiosity an over-active imagination one might 
say

when i asked Benoit Mandelbrot the father of fractals in a 
film called "a Conversation with Benoit Mandelbrot in a snow 
storm" what about curiosity he said "I fight curiosity" 

i have been suffering with Curiosityitis for sometime 
just didn't know it was what it was... there was no name for it... 

my Curiosityitis as far as i can tell comes from my thoughts 
and terminable or interminable diseased incurable 
imagination that grabs hold of you and you are its prisoner 
in life and in death - place no hope in death - some hide 
behind calling it creativity, passion, etc - but those who 
know, know and those who don't know well hmmm... so if you, 
and you know who you are, and we know who you are... you are 
marked by the deadly mark of curiosity one can read see it 
in the twinkle of your eyes and in your body language, you 
cannot hide... there is no escape once you have been touched 
by curiosityitis it consumes every atom of you... and if you 
are reading this and suffering from this un-sufferable 
unimaginable debilitating disease that keeps you up all 
night, night after night waking you up in all hours of the 
day and night - if you suffer from curiosityitis and are 
still alive and able to read this with all the things going 
on in your deranged and strange mind then you have come to 
the wrong place again... but you have my sympathies... 

 the symptoms of insufferable curiosity are easy to spot - 
 when you are excited by something being overly interested 
 in something, and having a vacuum cleaner of a mind... you 
 want to know everything every little nuance, detail... 
 questioning everything always looking for answers like a 
 little kid who has never escaped the terrible 2 which fyi i 
 call the age of invention - then as Dante wrote at the door 
 of hell in dante's inferno "place no hope in death"


 some might disguise curiosityitis as creativity or 
 invention (inner-vention) curious about the unseen, the 
 unknown the unknowable and the invisible is what haunts my 
 imagination 

again you have come to the wrong place - this is another nail in 
the coffin of your curiosity and hopefully there will 
someday be a cure for curiosity

if you have any wonderment left in you, go out or inside 
yourself and imagine the unimaginable, suspend yourself and 
your pre-conceptions - food for your imagination 

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curious geo

geo@curiosityitis.com  
 
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